Summer has begun

The summer has started, and it's been hard to adjust being swamped by.... nothing. That's right, nothing. Sure I still have responsibilities in the lab, but it's definitely not the same as homework and tests. Being in lab is a lot more like work than it is like school, even if it is taking place at school. With school, the stress is continuous; there's homework to work on and tests to study for. With work, I get to, for the most part, forget about it once I get home. Now there are times at work where I don't get to go home (e.g. my 8-9, mostly 8-11, occasionally 8-4am, job, circa 2006), but when I do, I still get to take my mind off of it.

The transition is hard to make, especially because I'm struggling to get some traction at the lab. My mind has lost the ability to hold on to an idea because it is no longer pressed to do so. I'm so unfocused, I can't even concentrate on slacking off - my mind wanders when I'm taking in my daily dosage of SI.com.

And then there's the boredom. Sunday night I was sitting in my room and I was bored out of my mind. Ever since I've come here, I've pretty much had to deal with school, even on the weekends. Occasionally we'd get a break, but then I'd be tired and want to recharge. It's different now because when I have time now, I'm not in that state where I can appreciate having time off; I'd just be bored. I don't know how to deal with that boredom either, because I've not had to deal with it really since I got here.

So I decided to get a bunch of books *gasp!*. I also have to pick up my camera again, and maybe go out more. Bike around, learn to see the beauty around me. Learn to be happy.